Ladiebug Lane

Wow it's been a long time!

2011-06-06T10:43:00.002-04:00

I am so sorry. I am sure I have no readers by now. I read some blogs and I even tried the vlogging world but I just can't keep up with that. I found some awesome vlogs while I was out there so I plan on keeping up with them. So lets see what's new? Not much in the TTC department. Still no baby. I was diagnosed with a fibroid this past April and very anemic due to the bleeding. They wanted me to have a hysterectomy. Yay! Yeah no sorry not happening. I went home and did my own research and found that they are caused by high estrogen levels. From there I read you can level that out with progesterone cream. Well I already had a tub of that because I had started using it again that cycle but you are suppose to stop when aunt flow visits so 2 weeks into the cycle that's when I thought she had come so I stopped. Little did I know it was the fibroid making me create blood to keep the fibroid alive. I started the cream right after I read that. After 6 days of applying it 2 times a day the crazy bleeding I had been going through for 2.5 weeks stopped. During that time I had also found something called Fibrovan. This magic pill promised to shrink my fibroid. I figured the progesterone cream would level out the estrogen but I didn't know if that would get rid of the fibroid. So I ordered the Fibrovan after I had been on the cream for 4 days. Within 2 days of taking it my energy level skyrocketed and I feel so much better. I don't know anything yet on whether it has shrunk it. I just know that I don't feel like I am being weighed down in my uterus other than an occasional bloated feeling. It also makes me pee a lot and have heart burn. BUT that is a given if you read about how it shrinks it. It sends waste removal fluids to it to remove it through your bladder. I just keep hoping and praying it's working! It can take 4-6 months. In the meantime I hope it ups my fertility and a miracle will happen! Fingers crossed!

Update on life and back to school

2009-01-25T13:27:00.001-05:00

I know it's been awhile that's for sure. I haven't really posted much about what has been going on in my life.IT has gotten even busier than usual. Back in January 2008 I decided to start looking into going back to school for Early Childcare. Since I work from home it needed to be something I could do in between being involved in Kaila's school, the kids in my care, keeping up with the house and my husband joining a volunteer fireman's hall which requires many nights of him being away for training. So after researching some accredited online schools I decided on Kaplan University. I already had known of Kaplan through my high school because they offered SAT prep classes.I looked into making sure they were an accredited school so I would be able to use my degree in my state. So at the end of January I started my journey to receive my Associate of Science in Interdisciplinary Studies (ASIS) with early childhood development emphasis- which mean Early Childcare Associates degree. I figured it was time to get the education to back me up since I have been working in this field for 10 years now. From there I will be halfway to my bachelors degree! I would be graduating this summer but things came up with my daughter where she needed some extra one on one with me so I only did 1 semester and then took off till this past Septemeber. I am now in my 3rd semester still maintaining a 4.0. I was asked to join their honors program before my 3rd semester started. I declined because I bust my butt to get the 4.0 that I do have. All my free time goes to homework . I try and get as much done during the week so I can free up as much free time for Kaila on the weekend. Right now I am trying to still be able to get my schedule done for the kids in my care daily. Right now I just have a 2.5 year old and a 1 year old but I will be up to 2 infants this summer. I am super excited for this but fear that I wont be able to keep up with my house work along with my daily chores. I am hoping to get everything under control before the summer so any advice anyone has I would greatly appreciate it!~

Wow prices have gone up!

2009-01-08T19:21:00.000-05:00

Oh my goodness! So I have a top entry litter box...I am still loving it! But anyway sometimes the boys will accidentally step on their business (when my husband slacks on the scooping front) and then they get on the top and well they leave brown smudges. So anyway I always wipe it down with a baby wipe and then spray it with Lysol. So to get back to my "Oh My Goodness" I had to buy Lysol today and boy oh boy has that price gone up! I went to Target and it was $4.99 for a small bottle. I went to Walmart and it was only 10 cents cheaper! I havnt had to buy any in a long time because when Dave closed down that sock shipping business in 2006 they told him he could keep whatever was left in the warehouse and among all the stuff he brought home were 2 huge bottles of Lysol (these ones were twice the size as the one I just bought) and now I am out...boo-hoo! I use that stuff in my garbage can and the litter box all the time or even where someone sneezes....... Yikes he brought home 4 huge bottle of toilet cleaner (they always bought in bulk) I hope that hasnt gone up as much when I run out!

My Crazy Kittens!!!

2008-12-04T12:12:00.000-05:00

I decided to shower before heading downstairs today. Zippo (20 weeks old) and Pediddle (17 weeks old) love being in there because of the warmth so I left the door open a crack instead of hearing them whine at the closed door. I was at the end of my showering and I saw a black kitten sitting on the rim of the tub poking his head in. Then he put his paw in to touch the water and he fell in. Instead of freaking out he laid back and started cleaning his belly while the water ran on him. I was shooting water at him trying to scoot him out before he freaked and climbed up me. So then Pediddle came to the rim of the tub and poked his head in. He jumped in and they thought it was time to play. Splashing water and rolling all over the tub. I got out and closed the bathroom door so I wouldn't have 2 wet kittens running through my house. I dried off and then had to dry them off. So then I came down to 3 broken Christmas ball ornaments (which stepping on broken glass is how I found that out) a few other ones scattered around, the bottom of my tree hanging down and a chewed on candy cane. So I was examining the kittens for any possible cuts, cleaning out my foot and vacuuming. While I was vacuuming (or it could have been when I was on the phone) they destroyed a roll of toilet paper in the upstairs bathroom. I thought I had closed the door but it must not have latched all the way. They both were cuddled up on the toilet seat (where they had some of the toilet paper to lay on) and I swear they were smiling at me! I smacked them lightly on their butts and said no! Zippo ran off yelling at me (or talking back) and Pediddle stayed rubbing against my legs apologizing. So now I can finally start my homework while they sleep downstairs on the couch dreaming about all the fun they had today.....or what is to come!

Cute things on the Amelia front....

2008-09-08T12:24:00.001-04:00

Amelia came running into the kitchen while I was cleaning breakfast dishes this morning screaming there was a snake in the house! I kept reassuring her that we don't have snakes. She said, "Yes Aunt Lindsy scary snakes! Come on!" She pulled me to the living room and showed me and it just was Ninja's black tail slithering out from under the buffet table. I showed her it was Ninja but she said, "Ninja has a snake and a Itsy Bitsy Spider!" Then she sang the Itsy Bitsy Spider and ended it really loud with " I will never see the spider again!" Now she wont go in the living room without me.
So I decided we should go for a walk. We had been walking and chatting for a good 30 minutes and I wiped out on the sidewalk...technically I did a split with one leg and caught myself with my one hand and knee. II imagine it looking like I was break dancing. There was a wet spot that was really slimy green and down I went. I only got a small scratch on my knee. I was soaked all along my left leg, butt and mud dripping down. When I fell Amelia peered around the stroller and asked, "Are you Ok Lindsy?" I said, "Oh yeah, just muddy." She blew me a kiss and said "Ok we go to the hospitable now!" LOL!
Then we came into the house and I cleaned up. She decided we were going to play McDonalds. I pretended I spilled my drink and she started singing, " Hush Little Baby dont cry about milk, go to sleep, I love you!"

I swear I dont know how I get through the day without peeing my pants!

Wow it's been awhile!

2008-06-26T14:30:00.004-04:00

Sorry that I fell off the face of blogging for awhile there. Having my niece during the week for the last 1.5 years has kept me distracted. She really keeps us busy and entertained these days!
Anyhow what's up with us and TTC?
Well we basically took off from clomid and metformin since last summer. I didn't have insurance for a bit there so that wouldn't have been good. I wasn't temping or anything that would possibly stress us out. Just basically shrugging everything off and letting nature take its course. Well we gave it our all and nadda. Thisn year I have stopped cooking, eating and drinking from certain plastics and I have been buying whatever I can organically and boom I got AF more this year than I ever have. So I am definitely sticking with that. I also switched to Bare Minerals makeup and my face is as smooth as a baby's bottom. I have the normal break outs but before Bare Minerals I looked like a teenager going through puberty.
Today I had my yearly exam and talked a lot with my doctor. She shared something with me that I didn't know...she also has PCOS! Plus she recently had a baby! I didn't go last year to my yearly because I didn't have insurance so I would have known if I went. They tried for 1 year..nothing, then she was diagnosed and tried the met and clomid route for a year. Then for another 18 months they did monitored clomid rounds, then monitored injectables and in the end they got pregnant picking the strongest sperm and biggest egg and having it all put back in (not IVF) and boom her baby miracle occurred. Then she proceeded to tell me that she had the same insurance I have and they covered 2 rounds of what she ended up getting pregnant doing! As soon as she heard what insurance I had we went to the computer and she looked into my insurance and they do! She hugged me and was so excited! I was so excited I wanted to cry! <--- honestly while we were talking and she was telling her story we both were getting teary eyed. I am again typing this! Then she showed me her picture of the sweetest baby girl and I had 2 tears stream down and goose bumps! I think it was the shock that I didn't even know my doctor had PCOS, (no wonder she has been like a cheerleader for me!) my insurance will help AND she got pregnant, all in one! Soooo looks like there are other possibilities. I really had given up on the thought of anything like injectables and everything else because insurance companies never wanted to help you get pregnant.
OK now back down from that happiness high...we sat down and discussed a plan. I had been off metformin for a year so she said get right back on and into your system. I also gained back the 15 pounds I had lost being on it so she said definitely get that off. Which wont be too hard if it goes like last time I was on it that will come off in the first month along with all the walking/ lifting weights I am doing. I am on CD 47 so she gave me provera to bring that on but she wants me to hold off in case it comes on its own. We will be going on vacation Jul 12-19th so she said start it when we get back, If it isn't brought on by the metformin possibly helping me ovulate. She asked me about my PCOS symptoms. I explained how my uterus feels so heavy sometimes that it weighs down on my bladder, plus my ovaries have been giving me sharp pains a lot more than normal. She said unfortunately there wasn't anything she could do for the heavy feeling but she could give me birth control to help with the ovaries. That right there threw me for a loop! She knew I was trying to get pregnant. She said before I do the infertility specialist (which they wouldn't really want to do much with clomid till the metformin was in my system and that can take up to 6 months) they would check my ovaries and if there were a lot of cysts they would put me on birth control possibly for up to 3 months to reduce the cyst sizes or get rid of them. Why delay everything even longer and start it now? So she gave me 3 months worth right there in the office. So I will start that after Provera (or whenever it comes) brings on AF. So 3 months from now we will be heading down a new path of TTC and we have no clue what that is yet, but it is exciting! I had given up all hope. I went in there a little defensive figuring they were going to try and talk me into doing more clomid or just hand me off to an Infertility Specialist and slam the door behind me.
Dave and I have been talking about adoption a lot lately. That is till in the picture but my doctor made me realize something. I am still young enough to have hope! What if we give up and just go it naturally while we are adopting and nothing happens. Then when I am 37 we finally go to a specialist and the tests come back and it's too late? Then we would be kicking ourselves. So I am willing to give it all I have, as long as my insurance company is willing. Why not? I used to think I didn't want to know if I couldn't get pregnant but she really made me see that either way there could be regret and the thought of possibly missing out saddened me more.
So all I need now is to be able to call her once a month and tell me this all over again when I am needing a lift...lol!
So looks like I will be popping metformin and birth control pills. We are so not looking forward to my moodiness on those suckers.....
So our homework for the next 3.5 months is to get as much weight off as we can and keep moving. Sounds easy especially since it's summer! So please keep us in your prayers :)

My goofballs!

2008-03-16T14:08:00.000-04:00

The Cutest Snowbunny!

2007-12-18T10:45:00.001-05:00

Photo Sharing - Video Sharing - Photo Printing - Photo Books

Can I.....

2007-12-05T19:11:00.000-05:00

Trade her in for a boy? Yikes! She is all over the place these days with her moods! Sometimes it is just so hard not to laugh.....
Kaila asked me to go over her study sheet for her Science test tomorrow. Now these are all vocab words from the beginning of the year till now. She has taken tests and gotten from 85-100 on all of these. Some of them I still know by heart from her last test! So I am asking the ones on the first page and she gets them all right. She is psyched! Then we get to the second page and she starts getting some wrong. Me I am just asking away nicely and putting checks next to them as she gets them wrong. I have her write them out 2 times each. We do this for every test. It has always helped her for the test. As I am checking them wrong the more she slopes in her seat and the worse her mood gets. She starts answering me quietly where I have to ask her to repeat herself. I ask her ecosystem...which has been on the last 3 tests! She sits there thinking for 3 minutes. So I tell her the answer and she yells, "You didn't give me enough time! I was about to say that!" I gently hand her back the paper and say nicely " I am not helping you when you get this way." She whines, "But I need your help!" I say calmly back, "You wouldn't help me if I was snapping at you. When you get like this you just sit there and it doesn't get any studying done. Plus I told myself I wasn't going to help you anymore if you aren't trying. All it does is get me upset and we don't get anywhere but arguing like this. " She snaps back, "I am trying!" I said nicely," Kaila you aren't putting your all into it like you were in the beginning. Now you have a sulk, poor me attitude and we aren't going to get anything done when you are like this." Now she is crying and begging, "Please mom help me!" I said," I will help you when you calm yourself down and look over your notes some more." So I leave to get my jammies on. I walk by the study desk (my scrapbook desk) and she is sitting there balling her eyes out and letting buggers go all over the paper. I go in, give her a hug, and tell her to go blow her nose, splash some water on her face, put her jammies on, brush her teeth, calm herself down and look over the notes and I will be in. So she is loudly like I took her favorite toys away while she gets dressed. I don't understand. I hope this cry is what she needs so we can move on to studying. Ugh! So hormonal and dramatic! I am so sorry mom if I ever put you through this. Where oh where is my sweet,bouncy, lovable Kaila today? Can the wacky hormones level back out so we can get back to normal please?

Lets start the day with almost calling an Amber Alert!

2007-12-05T09:09:00.000-05:00

So Dave and I were hanging out making a late breakfast this morning when we got a call from Kaila's school. They were asking if she was absent today? Dave said no...I said I watched her walk and get on the bus. So they put us on hold. Me, I ran outside doubting what my eyes saw. I looked at the ground and saw her foot prints in the fresh fallen snow walking down the street and disappear where the bus would have picked her up. Then I came back upstairs and Dave was making his scrambled eggs. I asked what was up he said they got disconnected! So I was all in a panic and Dave said, "Just relax." Yeah someone telling you that doesn't help. Then the phone rings and he practically knocks me over so he can get to it first...yeah he was relaxing! Then he hangs up. Turns out Kaila took forever to eat her breakfast (I let her eat breakfast once a week there-today was milk, jelly bagel and fruit) so she went straight to her music class instead of going to homeroom. They get 40 minutes to eat! She has been eating slow as molasses these days. Last night it took her an hour to eat half a BBQ cube steak, 2 tbs sweet potatoes and 2 tbs spinach (my no thank you helping). All food that she enjoys. Figures...her slow eating is gonna kill me some day!

Happy Thanksgiving

2007-11-22T13:52:00.001-05:00

Myspace Glitter Graphics

Happy Early Thanksgiving for Us!

2007-11-18T09:25:00.000-05:00

This year one of my brothers flew in from CA. We only see them if someone is getting married in the family. Since my youngest sister (I have 3 sister-1 older 2 younger than me) is between boyfriends and all 3 brothers (all younger than me) aren't in serious relationships the only way they would visitis if someone gets married or there is a death in the family. We pray that isn't any time soon, that's for sure. Since it has been 2 years since the last wedding he decided he should come for a visit. He leaves Monday so we are having our Thanksgiving on my side today! Yesterday I spent the day making an apple pie, dutch apple pie, and sweet potato casserole. I dropped them off at my sisters last night. Today Kaila and I peeled 8 pounds of potatoes and soon I will mash and bring on over to the yummy feast! I usually am in charge of green bean casserole but I passed that on to my youngest sister this year. So this year we get to eat 2 Thanksgiving dinners! Oh boy I can feal my pants gettign tighter thinking of it...lol!

YUM!

2007-11-06T14:45:00.000-05:00

I made a cinnamon raisin swirl bread in my bread machine. I basically follow my favorite cinnamon roll recipe...throw everything into the bread machine that is just for the dough. Then when the last knead cycle is done I take out the dough (leaving the machine where it is in the cycle) roll out the dough in a rectangle, put in the fillings from my recipe and roll it all up tight like you normally do but don't cut it. Roll it into a tight ball making sure all the ends are sealed. Then take out the kneading paddle from the machine and plop it back in. That's usually a rise cycle and it doubles in size. We usually snack on it the afternoon I make it and then have french toast with it the next morning. YUM! This time it almost popped out of the machine!

Hailing already?

2007-11-06T10:31:00.000-05:00

Why are there 2 of these on here?

But not in my post when I got check....

Baby K

2007-11-06T10:23:00.000-05:00

Kaila helped pick out what paper she wanted and die cuts....I think it turned out nice.

Toddler Page.

2007-11-02T12:30:00.001-04:00

I love these pics of her. The paper is kinda funny to use with them since she is all tom boy in the pics...lol!

Finally Got One!

2007-11-02T12:23:00.000-04:00

I finally got a book to put my pages in. Kaila wanted a purple one really bad. I foound a couple but they were either really cheaply made or had gems glued to them. I want this to last and I know the gems will fall off. This one is made really good and pretty. I can add more pages to it as well. I am very happy with it and so is she.

Happy Halloween

2007-11-01T09:54:00.000-04:00

Kaila actually helped carve her own pumpkin this year :0)

All the costumes worn were home made this year. My husband made Kaila's and my sister bought everyhting to make Amelia's last year but the sewing machine wasn't working right. So this year she had a freind make it for her.

Kaila got a lot of comments on her costume. One woman came up to her and said, "For me!" Shook her and said," I always shake my presents before opening."

First Day of Kindergarten

2007-10-30T21:45:00.000-04:00

I did this one after the one below tonight. Kaila likes it but she said it should be on purple paper....lol! If it was up to her they all would be on purple and pink. I told her not to worry there will be more to come. The majority of hte pics are form her first day but then I threw in school pic and graduation pic.

Pretty Purple with Ribbon

2007-10-30T21:16:00.000-04:00

I got the idea for this one from a scrapbooking show on the DIY channel. I have so many random pics of Kaila over the years that I didnt really know what to do with them. I plan on putting some cutout from my Cuttlebug on there in random spots when I figure out what I want.

Father Daughter Dance

2007-10-29T22:13:00.000-04:00

I love how this turned out! I can tell you right now this one is going to be my favorite :0)

Another page done tonight!

2007-10-22T21:03:00.000-04:00

I did this one tonight. I am not feeling the warmness inside like I did with the first page. I like it but I don't love it. I am going to leave it alone for now but I may add some journaling or maybe something. It just looks like it needs something.

Paige One of Many

2007-10-22T08:34:00.000-04:00

I finally started Kaila's Scrapbook. This is page one of many to come. If you click on them you can view a larger image.

I strated this one at a scrapbooking get together my sister and her firends strated having once a month. I myself got this one page done in the 4 hours we were there while everyone else got like 3-4 done..lol! It takes a lot of planning and playing aorund with the pictures before you can commit to it.

This one is from a pumpkin patch we go to every year.

The Great Pumpkin Farm

2007-10-16T14:47:00.000-04:00

We have been making a trip to the Great Pumpkin Farm yearly since 2002. This was Amelia's first time :0) Kaila and her had a blast.

Crawling through a wooden train:

Goofball

Goofball 2

Ghostly Kaila

The Gang (some of my side of the fam)hanging out (minus Dave who was taking the pic)

Mommy (my older sis) trying to get her to look at the camera

Kaila on her first Pony ride. She has a look that says she still cant beleive she is on one!

The girls among the pumpkins

Amelia with her pumpkin and Kaila trailing after her.

Daddy warming Amelia up before we leave.

Weekend as our dream family.

2007-10-10T14:57:00.000-04:00

Ok so I figured I should update yet again...lol!
Well Miss Amelia has been keeping me busy these days. My sister went away for a business trip the last week of September. She asked her hubby if he could come for the beginning part. So they asked us if we would like to keep her for 5 nights! Of course we didn't turn that one down! We had so much fun with her. The first few nights she woke up a couple times and she nestled her face into my neck and was back to sleep in no time. After that she slept through the night. We kept her really busy. Went out to dinner the first night, the zoo (her first time with her parents permisison) the next, Sunday church (she loved the nusery and actually threw a fit when I took her out to come to my pre-school Sunday school class-until she saw all the other new toys) and a birthday party that night. She was so good too. We didnt watch any TV till after she went to bed while she was here. Who needs it? At this age they do so many new funny things we didnt want to miss a thing. My husband actually took it upon himself and changed her poopy diapers a couple times without being asked! The day she left he came home from work and said wow it's so different when she isnt here. I mean Kaila was actually bored that day after her school work. This really has me pumped to have one of our own. We also were thinking about adoption if that doesnt pan out. I mean if we can give Amelia that much love why couldnt we to another? It's alot to think about.....
Here are some pics form that weekend:

Studying the elephants when we first arrived

She looks so pretty the way the sun is hitting her face here:

They were having a "who will blink first" contest. I know it's blurry but it's so cute!

Don't you think of taking this cone form me!

The gang as we head to feed the giraffe.

Sunday dresses. I don't know what is up with her smile...lol!

Wave Of Light

2007-10-09T15:03:00.000-04:00

A year ago today....

2007-08-31T14:36:00.000-04:00

Then:

Today:

She's growing up

2007-08-20T12:26:00.000-04:00

Well Thursday was the day. I gathered up some items and the books and Kaila and I cuddled on my bed and we read about her future with Aunt Flo. She was full of questions that I had answers for! Sometimes I think I know too much. I had to not fil her head with it all. At one point she asked me when Aunt Flo will finally go away. She thought once it started she had it for life...lol! I explained it to her again and she understood it's only a once a month monthly visitor. Walking out of our room that day she seemed so grown up.......

I am alive...lol!

2007-08-15T11:55:00.001-04:00

Alrighty I am finally updating...lol!

I did post some pics from Kaila's 10th birthday and Amelia's 1st. I back dated them so dont think you missed them when I originally posted them.
I also had to delete 2 posts because I accidentally added 2 comments a friend of mine asked me not to publish. Which I accidentally did just now. I couldnt find anything showing how to delete them once you did...I know the old format had that.

TTC:

Well after round 5 of clomid and no bfp we decided it was time for a break. We started TTC on our wedding night so we never really had a chance to know what it's like not to. Plus I needed to get clomid out of me for our marriage. That stuff really messed with my moods. Why would they give you something that will dry you up down town and turn you into a hormonal person? Why would your husband even want to touch you when you are like this? If I'm the first to admit this fine, but there were some nights that I just wanted to lay there......clomid really made me feel crappy. So for the sake of all that together we decided it was time to put things on hold. Of course we didn't stop everything you do to get pregnant. I stopped temping daily, no clomid or thoughts on getting a bfp. I did keep on using the progesterone cream for other purposes though. Of course I was hoping way far back in my mind that who knows maybe this hold will bring it on. Of course that can't happen if you don't ovulate. The 3 months (May 15-Aug 11th) we were off, af was a no show= no ovulation. The cycle was 89 days exactly. AF only came because I took prometrium. So timing is perfect because this is when we decided to start again. DH is happy but he got himself back into coffee again. I told him if he did it would be hard to break it again. I got myself into a routine of walking daily (weather permitting) so I am feeling much healthier. I am hoping this will keep me motivated to use the eliptical daily when it gets too cold.

Summer:
This summer has been a lot of fun. Sad though because it is my last with Lauren since she was 6 weeks old. She starts Kindergarten in the fall. Last Thursday was my last day with her. Her mom is off due to surgery on her foot so Lauren will get to spend the rest of her summer with her. She is very happy doing so but it made me sad that my time with her was ended earlier.
Amelia is turing out to be quite a ham. She is finding ways to make us all laugh daily. I am looking forward to the end of September when we get to have her overnight for an extended weekend while her parents have an overdue (first time) child free vacation. I am sure it will be hard on them since it is their first (and Amelia's) time when one of them isn't with her overnight. Me, I am excited for them and for us. I feel privilaged to get to be her first slumber party...lol!
Kaila is having a great summer hanging out with Lauren and Amelia. She told a friend of mine that she can't wait till school starts because she wants to see what a challenge 5th grade will be. I have no idea where she got that from. There are days where she is in her room playing with her Polly Pockets (we don't have any from the recall list) and Littlest Pet shop being a kid and then she comes out saying things like that...lol! I am getting ready to tell her about the monthly visitor that will be in her future. She has already been having crazy mood swings. I got her The Feelings Book By American Girl so she can help keep them under control a bit. It was funny because a couple days after she got that she comes out in tears saying that book isn't helping her...lol! I also got the book The Care and Keeping of You . I havn't given that to her yet. I plan on using that when I have THE TALK with her. I don't have any kids tomorrow so I am thinking of doing that then. I am hoping the pics in there will help. I also put together a kit like my mom did for me when I was younger. She put pads, liners and tampons (which she didn't want me using yet) chocolate and tylenol. Of course I ate the chocolate before I even got it...lol! But I know they will be hearing about it in 5th grade this year so I want tov tell her before some stranger tells her first. I'll update you guys on that after I do it.

PCOS stuff:
I did a search on how to increase your chances of conceiving and preventing miscarriages . I found some new info and decided to get all the vitamins this weekend. I have been doing the progesterone for my PCOS since Febuary. The hirsutism issues that come with PCOS were getting worse for me, ny hair on my head was really thinning out and my face was really bumpy. No red zits just the bumps that are the same color of your skin but you know there are imperfections in there. It's taken some time (since Feb) but my face is really clearing up and my hair on my head is growing in. I have tons of annoying baby hair which is welcomed. I havn't noticed much about the other hair so now I am drinking organic spearmint tea daily hoping that will help. So that about sums it up. I hope I havn't lost all my readers :0)

Happy 1st Birthday Amelia!

2007-07-10T11:39:00.000-04:00

Kaila's 10th Birthday!

2007-05-11T11:34:00.000-04:00

Happy Birthday girl!!!!

Thank you!!!!!!

2007-04-09T11:14:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to thank all of my online friends for all the hugs and kind words. I don't have moments like that often and it was so nice to see how many friends I have out there. I really don't know how I would have gotten through the day without you all! I promise I am back to my happy self. It may come by again and I am so glad to have you all here picking me up! Thanks again!!!!

Happy Easter

2007-04-08T11:12:00.000-04:00

Hoppy Easter!

I might give myself a heart attack someday!

2007-03-06T20:51:00.000-05:00

I have been scaring the crap out of myself lately. I have inherited it form my mom. Example: I could know Dave is in the living room and when I get to the corner to go in her comes around at the same time and I jump a mile giving him a nice laugh.
Well last week Dave cleaned one of his jersies and hung it behind the bathroom door to dry. I went to the bathroom in the middle of the night and when I went to close the door (not wearing my glasses) I screamed! It looked like someone was standing behind the door!
The bathroom at the new place has those sliding doors on it. Well one of them is a mirror and it's right next to the toilet. Lets just say I have a shower curtain up anyway because we just dont want to see ourslves on the toilet. So tonight I went in to start the shower for Kaila and I scared the crap out of myself. I pulled the shower curtain back and my reflection from the side looked like someone was in the shower.....which of course led to me screaming and jumping. Kiala thought it was hysterical. My heart went for a nice run! Crazy stuff!

Farwell to Whitey

2007-02-02T16:26:00.000-05:00

Every morning the first thing I do (after brushing my teeth and getting Kaila up) I go turn the light on in our fish tank. The 4 of them swim all to one corner watching me bend down to get the bottle of fish food from the cabinet. They go crazy till I pour it in. You;d think we dont feed them! Well this morning was a little different. I turned the light on and Whitey went spastic all over the tank smacking aorund and swishing water. He was calmed down by the time I poured some food in. He ate a bunch. Then after Kaila got on the bus I noticed he was floating on his side. He was alive but just hanging out onhis side. If any of the other fish went by he would move back to normal though. Then aorund 9 am my sister called and while I was on the phone he was on the bottom of the tank on his side dead. I looked all over him and there isnt any ick on him. I am wondering if he smacked something when he went crazy this morning. Poor fishy.

We have had him a little over 2 years now. He was a tiny tiny goldfish when we got him. I measured him before he went to his watery grave. He was 6 inches long (from nose to the end of his tail) and 3 inches width. He also was pretty thick! Might have had a heart attack....I know they only pump their blood in one direction......

Anyway he lived a long life for a goldfish. Beofre him we were lucky if they lived 2 months.

Whitey is survived by his wife Goldie (got her at the same time and she is pretty big too) and their 2 kids (well they didnt have them but we say kids anyway) JR and Goldie Girl.

s it wrong for me not to want to tell Kaila? I would rather wait and tell her if she notices.

House For Rent?

2007-02-01T19:06:00.000-05:00

Well we went to see the house. I liked it. The living room is huge. Plus the masterbedroom feels like you are in a cabin. It has really nice wood on the walls. The kitchen is nice and fully loaded with cabinets and there is a dinning room right accross from it! The bedrooms are all very nice sizes. The problem is the landlord was not like a typical one. He didnt have aplications. Didnt ask for references or anything. He was very friendly and talkative. Talked Daves ear off while I walked around. But he never said it was ours. We had to ask him when he wanted someone in by. We said mid Feb the earliest. Then he started tlaking about some lady who was there with her husband and they cant live together so they are living seperatly and she wanted ot move in right away. Buthe still has a ton of work to do. There is still a ton of furniture and he said he has to fix the tub. All he has been taking are names and numbers. He pulled a few other names and numbers out of his pocket and said he is going to go through them and decide. That is the weirdest and unsafest way I have eevr scene. Hopefully someone with the name Dave never upset him. I mean wha6t is he going to do do enie meeny miny moe? I just have a feeling it wont be ours.
I have called a few other apartments and left messages so we shall see.......

A side of stress please.

2007-02-01T10:01:00.000-05:00

Back in October I had a conversation with my landlord where he brought up that he might be raising our rent come February. I said nicely well if that's the case we will have to move because we already pay the amount of a mortage. He said well you have to do what you have to do for your family. There are other tenants out there.Then he said not to expect to get a lot back from our security deposit because he is very picky. I said well everywhere we have moved we have always gotten our deposit back because I am an avid cleaner and am opicky myself. He said ah well we shall see. How nice. Boy did I feel crappy then. We have always been very good tenants. Pay our rent on time.Thiings that needs to be fixed Dave fixes himself. We needed our faucet fixed and it took the landlord 6 months to get someone here to fix it. So as long as it didnt cost a bundle we would just fix things ourselves from then on. The garden in the front was a bunch of weeds so (because I like pretty gardens) we dug it up and put in a rose bush, rubbery plant bush and two azaelia bushs. For the last 2 summers we have put flowers in and bark around it to mak it look very nice. I always go around and pick up things that fly into the yard like paper and such. He always was very nice and pleasant to us. Then come October he says this to me like whatevcer I dont care. SO we went around looking for an apartment. We found 2 we liked. Then that night my landlord was downstairs talking to the tenant down there and I went by to do my laundry and he stopped me. He said he was sorry for being so mean and that he wasnt raising the rent come February. That was awsome because we really didnt want to move then. We planne don moving during the summer so we wouldnt have to possibly change schools on Kaila. So we stopped the search till summer 2007. Well yesterday I get a letter letting me know that come March our rent will be $100 more! I call the guy and he says all he said was he wouldnt raise it in Feb..he isnt he is for March. I had to get off the phone before I said something bad. I want to have a place all lined up before I blow my top! Dave is not a happy man. He has done a lot for that guy and now seeing that he doesnt care. I understand that people have to raise the rent but I have a fdeeling he just wants us gone. I know the lady donstairs wants our apartment. She has made many comments when she coems up here to get her kids how much she loves the cathedral ceilings, kichen layout and the bigger living room. She even told me that the landlord offered her the one next door for the same price (this summer before the new tenants moved in) she was paying for downstairs and the house next door has a/c. But she said she would rather move upstairs (where we live now) than have to move everything over. I was talking to her the other night when she said all this (our power went out for an hour because of a tractor trailer incedent that knocked over a power line-our landlord even called her while I was standing there and she went to another rooma nd came back talking all loud that she was in the hallway talking to me) and then she got all uncomfortable and tired to cover up what she said. I know she tells him eevrything because he knows we have a hamster....we never told him so she must have. I he might have someone he wants to move here or downstairs so she can move up.
I'll admit last night I was fumming. So upset that I didnt want to be here with the added stress all by myself. Dave was working till 8pm.So I pakced up soem dinenr for Kaila and I and went to my parents. They helped me calm down. Telling me his might be a good thing. That we can move somewhere cheaper and save. We looked up apartments to call on. BUT on the way home I saw a HOUSE FOR RENT sign. I almost got my van stuck trying to get the phone number...lol! Of course I was excited when I saw it. But then I figured it would be more than here being a whole house and all.But Dave called on it when I got home and it's a 3 bedroom West Seneca School district and $100 less than we are paying now and come March (when the rent raise starts) $200 less! So we shall see. We are going to see it on Dave's lunch break today. I am hoping this is the reason that all this is happening. A house! We wouldnt have to tell Kaila to stop waling to heavy because of the people downstairs. I wouldnt have to listen the the lady downstairs scream at her kids on a daily basis and wake up to her scremaing at her daughter who wet the bed because of a weak bladder....maybe if you didnt scream so much she would be so nervous and wet the bed...ya think? Amelia and Lauren wouldn't jolt whenever she starts screaming as soon as the kids get home. We wouldnt hvae to worry about sound at all! Yay! So wish us luck for todays adventure

I hate You PCOS

2007-01-30T20:19:00.000-05:00

Do ya ever just wake up really really hating soemthing so bad? I mean i dislike PCOS on a daily basis but today I just really hate it! Ever since the miscarriage my hormones have not gotten back to normal. My face looks like a teenager going thorugh puberty. Sad things is my face wasn't even this bad then! The hair on my head is thinning. I was looking back at my wedding shower pics at how clear my face was and how much body I had to my hair. Now it's super flat and wont even hold a curl or a hair clip! Then there's the other hair. Hair that isn't supposed to be there. Also I am tired all the time. I am not depressed. Just tired. Seems that 8 hours isnt enough. But then again it doesnt help that I get elbowed all night long from my husband. Speaking of him you have to hear what he said to me when I complained about shaving my face! " Now you know how much I hate shaving." Um.... women have to shave their legs and underarms. That wasn't enough knowledge on the subject already? I guess it serves me right? Um I am not supposed to know what that's like....ugh I wanted to rip him a new one but I decided not to get my mood in a swing. Clomid does enough of that for me.

She Came Today!!!!

2007-01-19T21:43:00.000-05:00

I was so excited when Amelia got here today! She has been sick all week. The very first time since she was born! Boy when she gets it she gets it for a long time! She still wasn't herself today. She had a pj day. She and I cuddled on the couch after every bottle for about 45 minutes. It was so cute! Her little but would be up and we would be cheek to cheek...sometimes I would have to move to see if she fell asleep! She would play on the floor but after about 30 minutes she couldnt hold her head up anymore due to the nasty cold :0( She was wacking at her nose all day when it would bug her. You can see in the pic below she already scratched herself and her eyes still don't look right. But she still can smile :0)
Here she is:

Ladedahdedah...and then some :0)

2007-01-17T23:16:00.000-05:00

Well it's been awhile. But we decided to take a break this last cycle (53 days long and finally ended it with prometrium) and I really feel back to myself. Clomid really does bring out the Dr. Hyde in me! I feel really in control now. No crazy mood swings.
So I get a call on Friday from my OBGYN. He wanted to know if AF had come (he knew I was taking a cycle off form clomid) and if I started clomid yet. I said she would be here by this weekend. He said no more cycles off. The clock is ticking and I need to do clomid this round. I honestly wasn't going to. I just hate the mood swings and how it just suxs everything out of me. Then he suggested I not drink milk due to the hormones the cows are being injected with. God knows my hormones are messed up why alter them even more with that? So I am drinking organic milk (says right on the jug they do not inject their cows with hormones) or rice milk. I havn't even had any cheese! I also am taking calcium with vitamin D supplements. I filled my metformin and clomid over the weekend. I have been taking the met all along though. Tomorrow we start another round.
Basically I have been making sure I get on my elliptical daily. I would be on it more if this darn cold would go away! My thraot starts hurting when I am on it. The first week of the year I started getting a really bad sore throat. Finally last week I was feeling much better. Then this past Sunday I wake up to a fever and my throat is killing me! Since then I have a nasty cold in my throat/chest and my ears are killing me. Every night I lay down and the coughing begins....so Tussin has been my best friend. So back to Ellie. I really am loving having her here! She has been kicking my butt! I cant go in the living room without looking at her. I made a rule that I cannot go on the computer till I get my booty moving on her. I also (as of today) blew up my ball and am making myself sit on that if I want to watch TV. My husband misses me on the couch but hey I need to work on my Core! I find myself rolling around on it, bouncing and rolling up and down getting some ab work done.
I realized that when I got pregnant I was eating great and exercising on Ellie. It worked in the past! So now I am keeping it up. Plus when ellie is kicking my butt and I just want to stop I remind myself that this could lead to a baby kicking me in the stomach inside :0) I notice, when I do stay on , I feel better about myself and dont want to eat junk late at night. That's the major problem is snacking at night sitting in front of the TV. Hasnt been a problem at all this week.
But then again it probably helps that I am watching Super Size Me and this guy is getting a surgery and I can see his stomach! How nasty! I will not be able to eat fast food! I need to get this movie and watch it every time I think of eating McDonalds! I really wish I had scene this sooner! Thanks for bringing it to my attention Kerri!

Happy 6 Months Old!!!

2007-01-10T15:30:00.000-05:00

My baby neice is 6 months old! My time really does fly! I feel hjonored and blessed that I get to be a major part of her first 6 months!!!
Here are some pics looking back:

Not even an hour old:

1 month:

3 months

6 months

What can I do now?
Roll over
Roll back
Blow raspberries
Starting to sit forward
Hold on to my bottle (still breastfed with mommy)
Play in the walker and jolly Jumper
Make music when someone taps over my mouth
The silliest laugh!
Chew on everything in my reach
Pull your face to her so she can (I think) give kisses but you geta wet face.
Move across the room scootching backwards
As of Saturday: I have a bottom tooth!
As of last night: eat cereal!!!!

2007-01-05T13:43:00.000-05:00

Free Hugs Campaign. Inspiring Story! (music by sick puppies)

This is awsome! You have ot watch!

My Resolution...lol!

2007-01-01T22:39:00.000-05:00

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Fly a kite.

Get your resolution here.

It's Finally 2007!!!

2007-01-01T01:44:00.000-05:00

Picture Of The Day :0)

2006-12-21T21:17:00.000-05:00

This is what happenes when you try to sneak a cookie while I am baking:

Picture Of The Day :0)

2006-12-19T22:17:00.000-05:00

Our Tree is up!

2006-12-19T16:21:00.000-05:00

Well it's been up since the Sunday after Thanksgiving but I figured I'd finally post a pic :0)

Santa hasn't come yet.....I wrap and put all the present under the tree that we bought for our friends and family :0)

Christmas and Exercising

2006-12-18T20:33:00.000-05:00

So how is everybody doing?
We have been busy with the hustle and bustle of Christmas. I am really excited about it this year. Not that I havnt been in the past but this year I have gotten some really nice gifts that I cant wait to give :0)
I realized that when I got pregnant last month I had been exercising a lot before hand. So since I cant control myself form having a miscarriage or ovulating I figured I would at least do something I can. So I have been busy making sure I get my booty on the elliptical (Ellie). Plus my younger sister lent my hubby her 6 Second Abs so I am doing that along with broom twists daily.
What brought on this? I went back looking at old fertility charts. I noticed that the months I ovulated on my own were months I had my sudden need to make sure my booty moving daily. I read that it's very important for women with PCOS to do this but I never had proof! That's enough proof for me. Not that I need proof to do something. Hey it's got me motivated. So since we arent TTC this cycle I figured it's a good month to get it under wraps. So far I have gone on Ellie for the whole month at least 5 days a week. I tend to get either lazy or busy on the weekends. This for me is huge that I have so I am happy wiht myself for that.

Locks Of Love

2006-12-02T19:38:00.000-05:00

Kaila decided about a year ago (after seeing a show on TV) that she wanted to grow her hair and donate it to Locks Of Love. Well she has been getting annoyed with her hair lately. She hates having to comb it all the time and how it gets in her face al the time. It has become a arguement lately to get her to comb it. So we decided to get it done this weekend.
First we wanted ot make sure she had it long enough. The salon said 10 inches is the requirement but they have sent 9 inches and they took it. They said it looked like Kaila's hair would be enough.
So here are the pics:
Before:

The Pony Tail:

After:

She Loves her new do! We are so proud of her for choosing to do this....of course this is the shortest she has ever had her hair so it's going to take some time to get used to it! She looks so grown up with it :0)

This about sums it up.....

2006-11-29T23:15:00.000-05:00

Not much to say......

2006-11-07T10:42:00.000-05:00

Sorry I ahvnt been a great poster. Not much really going on. I am on my 3rd round of clomid cd 20 and still no ovulation. FF gave me my coverline but I know when I ovulate and I dont think I did. My temps have been hovering right on the coverline. There wasn't much of a drop before they did give me my coverline either. I guess only time will tell. If af is here between Wed and Fri next week then I know I did. If my temp stays up past that then I will test.
DH and I have been shopping aorund for the last 2 months. For Christmas this year we decided to get each other one small gift and then 1 big gift we both would like. First we deicded we wanted a new matress. Then we decided we wanted somehting to get us off our butts. So we shopped around for a tredmill. Well while we were trying them out I noticed DH kept going on the ellipticals. So I asked him if he wanted one of them instead. I wanted soemthing we both would use. He said he honestly probably wouldnt use the tredmill because of his knee issues. But he really liked how the elliptical didnt put pressure on his knee. So we stopped looking for a tredmil and went with the elliptical. After looking at reviews online and going to a zillion stores to try them out, we finally found one we wanted and put it on layaway at Dick's Sporting Goods. Awsome thing is when it was on layaway it went on sale for $100 less! So a deal and a great machine! So we picked it up this weekend and it's all up and running!
I have used this at the gym on days I dont have a long time to workout. The first time I used ours I only lasted 5 minutes till I was swetting buckets and hurting. Then that night my whole body was crying. Yesterday i went on it for 10 minutes and it was worse. It really does give you a nice workout in a short period of time. I really cant wait to see my cardio abilities get better on this thing.
So basically we are ttc but we are gettng our butts kicked by this machine as well.

The Buffalo, NY October Storm

2006-10-22T13:33:00.000-04:00

I don't know if any of you have seen it on the News but where I live Mother Nature pounded us with 22 inches of snow starting in the afternoon of Thursday, October 12- early morning Friday the 13th.
I posted a video of it below when it started. This is what I saw later that day. I am laughing right now because Lauren wanted to go out and play in the snow when she saw it and I told her it wouldn't stick this early in the year......it did!

All through the night we heard cracking and our electricity was going in and out. My husband went out around 11:30 pm because the sky was lighting up green, blue and red. Later we found out that was the transmitters blowing up. Plus we realized that cracking was the branches of trees breaking off. One of the trees in the back yard had fallen over completely! My van was near a big tree and hje wanted ot make sure it wouldnt fall on my van.
Here is what he saw:
It's earlier than it ever has snowed so we still had our grill out, firepit, sand and water table, Umbrella tables (thank God we had brought in the umbrellas already) chairs, and hanging plants. Those branches you see there are all down oin the ground now.

Around 1 am I got up because I was freezing...the power was out...no heat.

Here is what we finally woke up to that Friday morning. That's my van. There is 22 inches of snow!

The backyard:

This is hte little girl downstairs taking a break after making a trail down the driveway:

Our mailboxes after the snow melted a little and the kids shoveled them out. The snow plows knocked them over:

These pictures are nothing compared to the damage I have seen driving aorund.

Our yard now:

That's only about and 1/8th of the branches that need to be brought up from the backyard. All you see driving down the street are branches piled high in front of their houses.
We were lucky we got our power back on by Saturday evening so only 2 days out. There still are some (11 days later) that still are without power. The weight of the wet snow on the electric lines brought many power lines down. Many have trees through their roofs and windows.
My mil and fil have a lot of things to replace in their home. The transmitter on their house sent a surge into hteir house before the power went off. Anything that was plugged in fried..........
We are very lucky that many places around the US sent many people to come help with all this! Thank you!!!

It too Early!!!!

2006-10-12T14:25:00.000-04:00

OK so I was watching Elmo in Grouchland with Lauren on the couch just now....all of a sudden Lauren looks at me and says, "You do know it's snowing outside, don't you?" I look up and there it is....snow!
Just because I didnt believe it myself I decided to take a video. This is just way too early for snow!

Thursday, October 12, 2006
It's snowing!!!

I do remember when I was younger taking the kids I babysat for trick or treating with a little bit of snow on the ground. But geesh I am so not ready for this....last year I didnt have to turn my heat on till mid November. That was with no tenants downstairs too! It's 36F outside right now and 68 in my house. If it gets lower than 62 the heat will come on.....

Not much to report...

2006-10-09T09:35:00.000-04:00

Sorry I havnt posted much lately. Havnt had anything earth shattering to share. At least not in the TTC adventure.
We did a round of clomid this cycle with no luck. So with it being cd 44 on Friday I tested (as told my obgyn) and started the prometrium Friday night. So far the prometrium is defiantly much better on me than the provera....but usually the provera mood sets in by day 4 so we shall see where today takes us...lol! Better not!
If all goes as it does with provera af should show by 10/19....yay! I ahvnt decided yet if I am going to skip a month of clomid (as my obgyn said we could) or keep going. I have 2 weeks to figure that out......

The Gym

2006-09-28T21:18:00.000-04:00

So I joined a gym in July. I was going religiously M,W,Th & Sat. Then in August I twisted my ankle and stopped for a week. Then I kinda stopped for another week. Then I seemed to only get there on Mondays. Hey that's better than never. So this week I went on Monday. I joined the gym on my own. OK yes my little sister is a member but we don't go together. I needed to join on my own. I have joined in the past with a friend and she never wanted to go so I wouldn't. We tried this twice together. This time I wanted to join on my own and go on my own. OK I dont mind if someone ends up wanting to go when I go but I go even if they don't. I am not wasting my money.
So I have been thinking of joining one of the aerobic classes. So today I looked up what was in for tonight. Step 1. I wanted to go. But this time I didnt want to go alone for the first class. I didnt want to be the only one not knowing the moves. A friend of mine joined the gym this week too. But she couldnt go tonight. So I called my sister and she already had plans as well. So I decided ah well I'll go to the gym and at least get in some cardio. I was on the tredmill when they announced the class was starting in 10 minutes. I gathered my nerve, put my mp3 player back in my locker and away I went. There were only 6 of us. I was the only newbie. The rest of them greeted me and were excited to have someone new. Very friendly bunch :0) This class was an hour long. I have never moved my whole body like that for an hour! OK there was like 2 half a minute breaks to get some water and wipe off the swett. Let me tell ya there was a lot of that! At the halfway point it felt like my heartbeat was in my face! I couldn't wait for it to be over. At the 3/4 mark we slowed down and did some stretches and then she made us do some ab work for 15 minutes. Man I felt the burn! At the end of the class the instructor said I was doing so well she threw in some Step 2 moves. I felt much better knowing that. There were a few that really confused me. By the time we were on the last one I would finally get it..lol! The T move, L move and tapping the corners was kinda confusing. Anyway I feel on top of the world now. Not only did I go alone but I did the whole hour! I feel great right now! This is a big accomplishment for me! The ladies even asked if I will be back on Tuesday and I so will be! So now I have some motivation to get me there on Tuesday and Thursdays! Yay!!! Did I mention I feel great? LOL!

Dentist

2006-09-21T10:50:00.000-04:00

So I had a cleaning 7 pm last night. I usually wait in the waiting room for at leats 45 minutes but not this time. I walked right in! My dentist kept saying how my teeth were so nice. He barely had to clean anything off. Plus he could tell I was a good flosser. I could have been out of there by 7:15...but he must have had some time on his hands (or wanted the money form my insurance) because he decided he wanted to redo a filing. I have 2 cavaties from when I was younger that are the old gray fillings. He redid one 6 months ago and decided to do the other one last night. Lucky me! That's great and all but I hate those darn novacain needles! Plus this was the first time I ever got one of the bottom! Poop those hurt! It takes forever too! I stared at the ceiling so hard my eyes started watering...he thought I was crying....lol! Nope I just stare and go into another world so I dont feel the pain when I know it's coming. Works too because I didnt feel much. The needle was in and then when he injected the nocacaine I felt a burn and then he had to put it in some more! That hurt! Geesh I dont rememeber it hurting the first time I got it filled! My tongue and jaw were all numb when I went to bed last night still! Ugh I woke up this morning flossing, brushing and mouth wash were the first thing on my mind. I do not ever want a cavaty in my bottom teeth! Of course not in my top either but definataly not the bottom!
Oh and get this!!! He said I was a hsade lighter form the last time I got a filling done (6 months ago). The Colgate Total whitening is doing it's job!

All Smiles!

2006-09-19T11:34:00.000-04:00

I had to share this video of my niece! She was all smiles today!!!! She is lucky I didn't nibble her cheeks off!

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Is it so wrong...?

2006-09-18T19:46:00.000-04:00

To be in love with a candle? I am in love with the Yankee Candle scent Autumn Wreath. It is one of their best new scents! I am so going to have to stock up before it's gone.
So there's really not much new going on so I havnt posted. I still havnt ovulated even though fertility friend seems to think I hvae. I know my body. I got my coverline by 1/10th of a degree. If I had had a 97.6 instead of 97.7 that day there would be no coverline at all. Plus my temp is already down so tomorrow the coverlien should be taken away. It wont hurt....it's happened before. A friend of mine reassured me not to give up just yet. One of our friend ovulated on cd 40 and has a beautiful dd from it.
Kaila starts her first practice for Chorus tomorrow! I was in chorus too so I am excited that she is doing it. Their practices are before school on Tuesdays. Dave's not excited he cant lay in bed for 45 minutes like he is used to. My repsonse? Poor baby. Since Kindergarten I have gotten up and gotten her ready every morning. Most of the time all she sees is him running around late and acting like we all should be running aorund helping him. But then again he is a crab in the morning so maybe it isnt a good thing she will have to deal with him. I just wish he wouldn't act like it's such a inconvenience......I am sure if he knew ahead of time about the time and I wasn't in their lives she wouldnt be in chorus. He's not a bad dad. He just doesnt do much for her without me suggesting things. I think if she were a boy it would be different.

Welcoming Holly

2006-09-12T19:03:00.000-04:00

My cousin Nicki had her little peanut September 10th @ 9:10 pm. Holly Danielle (6lb. 10oz, 19" long) was in a little distress so she came via c-section. Mommy and baby are doing well!
Welcome to the world!!!!

Now That's a Salad!

2006-09-12T18:49:00.000-04:00

Salad anyone? ... Ewwwww! Look closely at the package. Just below the lettering.

Don’t forget this brand of fresh lettuce, folks. What probably happened is, the water the lettuce was washed in contained polliwogs and these became fresh new frogs, right in the packages. So if you’re looking for salad fixins with a little more “body,” then be sure and try this brand. Don’t forget, it’s the extra care that Mexican companies take that makes the difference!

Honoring Frank Thomas "Paul" Wisniewski

2006-09-11T09:04:00.000-04:00

A nickname chosen three decades ago stuck and so, to business colleagues and even his family, Frank Wisniewski was known as Paul.
He chose the name when he took a job working for the cashier of Wall Street’s J.J. Kenny & Co. after returning from the Vietnam War in 1968. Wisniewski was asked to pick a new name to avoid confusion with the cashier, whose name also was Frank.
But whether they called him Paul or Frank, those who knew Wisniewski found him to be a loving, charismatic man whose generosity was matched by his friendliness and uplifting nature.
Family friend Judy Knight told the Star-Ledger of Newark that her children called Wisniewski “Uncle Frankie,” and remembered just about every Christmas present he gave them, “the one gift that every kid wanted but their parents couldn’t afford.”
A Brooklyn, N.Y. native, Wisniewski lived in Katonah, N.Y. and Verona, N.J. before moving to Basking Ridge, N.J. about 10 years ago. He was a member of Liberty Corner Presbyterian Church and active in the Somerset Hills YWCA.
Wisniewski was past president of the Cashiers Association of Wall Street, Inc., past chairman of the Public Securities Association Municipal Bond Operations Committee and director of the Securities Operations Division of the Securities Industry Association.
Frank T. Wisniewski was 54, vice president for Cantor Fitzgerald and on his 104th floor office in Tower One died Sept. 11, 2001, a victim of the coordinated terrorist attacks against the United States in New York, Washington DC, and elsewhere.
He is survived by his wife, Carol Donnelly Wisniewski; children, 18 y/o Alexandra (13 then) and 16 y/o Jonathan (11 then) ; parents, Mary and Vincent and older brother, Vincent.

Back to School

2006-09-06T14:51:00.000-04:00

Ah finally it's here...lol! I laugh only because of what Kaila said to me the other day:
"Mommy I am so excited to go back to school! I know you are getting sick of me....cause I am kinda getting sick of you" I said well I am excited for you and kinda need a break but I'll miss you while your gone." She said, "Oh come on mommy you can admit your getting sick of me." LOL! I said,"Um I could never get sick of you but I can tell you are getting bored with me."...she said "Oh yeah! Ok I am not sick, just getting bored." LOL!

Here I could barely stop her before she went out the door:
Yes that backpack is as heavy as it looks!

Here she is waiting with the neighbors:

Not this time....

2006-08-23T08:17:00.000-04:00

I had a huge temp drop this morning (from 97.8 yesterday to 97.1 today) and was covered in sweat this morning! It was really weird! I think such a huge temp drop did it. Anywho....af must be on her way!
It's weird because when I went to the bathroom and found a little pink I wasn't sad at all. The first thought was...Wow I really ovulated on my own!!!!
So af should be here sometime throughout the day. I had some heads up yesterday with a but load of gas (lol) and cramping...Then last night I had some cravings to make chocolate chip cookies....I cut back on my carbs so that is a no no ...lol!
So the plan is as soon as af starts I will start clomid on cd 5-9. Please pray that I ovulate and we catch that eggie!!!

Letter to Clomid

2006-08-18T12:54:00.000-04:00

Dear Clomiphene,

Well here you are for a second time in my house. I thought I'd tell you a about the rollercoaster our TTC adventure has been in this time
Ever since I was young I loved kids. I was old enough to be a motherly type when my youngest brother came into the world. I immediatly fell in love and tried to be a little helper to my mom as much as I could steal him away from her. It was then I decided I really wanted to be a mom when I grew up. I even told my mom I would have 100 kids...lol! Until then I figured becoming the neighborhood baby sitter would have to suffice. I surrounded myself with kids. Then I decided to be a chef for awhile. I enjoyed it but it didn't fill that empty void. So I left that job for a lower paying job at a daycare that made me much happier inside. I did that until 2002 when my bf proposed and not too long after asked me to stay home with his 3 y/o dd from a previous marriage. I accepted happily.
Well in early 2003 we decided that on our wedding night7/5/03 we'd start trying to make a baby. So I went and had my yearly visit with my obgyn for a pre conception appointment. We discussed everything about my irregular periods to our dreams of making a baby together and how to go about doing that. I was given the OK and to have fun!
That was 2 years of my life......Then I got a new OBGYN in 2005 and my concerns were answered. I was diagnosed with PCOS. For many PCOS sufferes Insulin Resistane (IRS) is also coupled with it. Given my past with irregular periods he thinks I was born with it or developed it during puberty. I was put on 1000mg of metformin daily in 9/2005 . He also sent my dh in for a SA abnd he came back normnal. Thank God becuase that would have made it even harder. 6 months later my obgyn brought me back in to see how that was going. Not much ovulating going on there. So he sent me in for a HSG and my tubes are clear. I did 1 round of clomid and you helped me ovulate that month but no bfp. Since then I have ovulated twice on my own and used provera to induce af twice. I went back in for my yearly in July and saw a different doctor who works under mine. Dr. Jen Phillips is awesome!!! She gave me prescriptions for 6 more rounds of 100mgs of clomid and 4 rounds of prometrium (back up in case I don't ovulate).
Looks like I wont be needing the prometrium this round!!! I am currently 11 days past ovulation. I ovulated with only metformin! Maybe it's alctually working now! So if this cycle doesnt end in a bfp I will be taking you again.
So I have you caught up. I just thought you would like to know a little about how much I am relying on you. No pressure or anything. But I am praying that with you and God on my side this will be it for us! I undertsand that maybe you need a few months to help me develope that perfect egg. But please with Gods help I am begging you to bring our little miracle to us. Like I said no pressure. OK so I am lying...LOTS of pressure! I know that all you can do is do the ovulation part. The rest is up to my body. I am so praying that with Gods help this all will work together.
Sincerely,
Lindsy

I did it!!!!

2006-08-14T20:48:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to share that I ovulated on my own this month!! I havn't ovulated since January after my hsg!!!! Of course there will be no bfp because we were away at the cabin so we couldn't catch the eggie. But I am sooo excited I ovulated!!!!! It's great to have it happen before the clomid months begin. ..now I should know when af will arrive.......I have known since 7/7/06 but my chart has given me a ovulation dates in the past nd taken it back. But now I am far enough plus showing signs of ovulation...my bbs are on fire today..plus veins sticking out all over. This happened in December around the same time after ovulation. I am so excited! I know that you may think I am a weirdo for being this excited and I should save it for a bfp but not ovulating in so long is something to celebrate!!! Fellow cysters know what I mean! Yay!!!!
I will be filling my clomid this Friday!

CD 32

2006-08-11T10:51:00.000-04:00

Not much going on in the TTC world.
According to FF I ovulated sometime on Monday. Only time will tell (the normal 16 days I get of temps above their coverline) if it's true. I know this will not be a result in a bfp....tmi but dh' would have to have some super dudes to last 6 days. With going away this past weekend and all the planning, packing and shopping before hand we were too zonked to bd. Monday the actual trip caught up with us and we actually were asleep by 10 pm! So needless to say I will party even if I just ovualted on my own! That is something ot be excited about when you have PCOS!!!
DH thinks I am pregnant. Since Tuesday I have been nauseous and have bowel issues. But I think I just had a bug. Then the last 2 days anything dairy smells sour to me. Even the creamer that I bought last night and opened fresh this morning to make his coffee. I made him a bagel and the same with the cream cheese. I made his lunch and put cheese on it and ewww that reeked! The only reason he knew was because I made him and Kaila smell them to make sure it wasn't just me...it was. He poured me a small cup of coffee and put some of his caramel creamer in it and I couldn't drink it because I could smell the sour before it got to my face...ugh! But this happens to me once in awhile so it's just my snot locker acting up..lol!
So I was telling my friend that my obgyn told me I can take the prometrium between cd 30-60...whenever I feel it's time. But I have had this nagging feeling in the back of my mind telling me not to. So my friend said, "Always listen to that inner voice." So I am listening to this very smart women and myself voices in my head :0)
So the plan of attack is as follows: I will fill my clomid by next weekend in case I really did ovulate. So if I did I should be taking the clomid by the end of the month.
It's funny cause this was not part of the original plan. The original plan was September. I guess I can be OK with the plans changing in this situation...lol!
But I am not going to put much into thinking it really happened. I still have to keep my guard up...last time I thought I ovulated and you'd think I was hoping I was pregnant and turned out I wasn't. It's so hard to hide the hope from yourself.
I really didn't want to have to take the clomid. I am so stubborn about it. I also don't like how it makes me feel. When I took it in December I was fine...the next 2 cycles without it sucked! I lost my labido and dried up. I was so not in the mood to bd. Now ok what's the point of taking something that will help you ovulate if your body stops making the fertile cm you need? I got some Femglide to make up for that but what is there to get my hormones back? UGH! Infertility sucks! But I will beat this!!! I will get pregnant! I will over poser this PCOS! It wil not beat me!

Congrats Brett and Courtney!!!

2006-08-07T16:01:00.000-04:00

I just wanted to announce the pregnancy of a fellow cyster Courtney!!!
It always makes me so excited to hear of a fellow pcos-er TTC-ing and getting their bfp!!! It gives me so much hope!
Congrats and I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months!!!!!

PCOS and Insulin Resistance

2006-08-01T15:57:00.000-04:00

PCOS is associated with Insulin Resistance which affects the body's glucose levels resulting in Chronic Fatigue and Insulin Resistance, a pre-curser of Diabetes.
I know that I have someof the symptoms of the above....there are some days that if I don't follow a specific plan (Thank you Kerri!) I seriously get light headed and have blurred vision. I mentioned this to my doctor and my tests all came back normal last year so she believes it's just from the PCOS. I will have a physical with my regualar doctor next month so she suggested getting my sugar levels tested then. My wonderful interent friend Christy suggested Byetta. Her OBGYN put her on it to help her (along with metformin) Insulin Resistance that came along with PCOS. So I will be mentioning that to my primary when I see him next month. Until then I think I may try what I found below to get me by.

Here's an article I found on using reg cinnamon to reduce insulin levels, so I might try it & see if it works. I love the taste of cinnamon already!
Spoonful of cinnamon may help insulin go into cellsBy Suzanne RostlerNEW YORK, Aug 24 (Reuters Health) - People with type 2 diabetes may improve their ability to regulate their blood sugar by adding a little spice to their life, researchers report.In preliminary findings, cinnamon helped fat cells recognize and respond to insulin, the hormone that removes excess glucose (sugar) from the blood and deposits it into cells. In a test tube and in animal studies, the spice appeared to increase glucose metabolism by about 20 times, according to Dr. Richard A. Anderson, lead scientist at the Beltsville, Maryland-based Human Nutrition Research Center, a branch of the US Department of Agriculture."This is a very good means of improving blood sugar with minimal means and minimal cost," he told Reuters Health. "This could help millions and millions of people."The majority of the more than 16 million Americans who suffer from diabetes have type 2 diabetes--a disease in which the cells fail to recognize insulin. As a result, the amount of sugar in the blood remains high, leading to fatigue and blurred vision. Over the long term, excess blood glucose can increase the risk of heart attack, kidney failure and blindness.Diabetes is the seventh-leading cause of death in the US, according to the American Diabetes Association.Anderson explained that his mostly unpublished research shows that a compound in cinnamon--methylhydroxy chalcone polymer (MHCP)--makes fat cells more responsive to insulin by activating the enzyme that causes insulin to bind to cells and inhibiting the enzyme that blocks this process."What you have is a highly effective system," Anderson said.While it is too soon to recommend the spice as a regular treatment for type 2 diabetes, Anderson said patients could try adding 1/4 - 1 teaspoon of cinnamon to their food."The worst that will happen is it won't do any good and the best is that it will help dramatically," he stated.Clinical trials using a cinnamon extract on humans are due to begin in 6 months, Anderson noted.Type 2 diabetes is most often diagnosed in adults over 45 who are overweight. An increasing number of children and teenagers around the world are developing the disease due to increasing rates of obesity and sedentary lifestyles. More information on the disease is available at the American Diabetes Association Web site http://www.diabetes.org./

I am aware!!!

2006-07-31T12:04:00.000-04:00

My magnetic ribbon is here! Did you order yours? If you would like to you can order one here.

Now I just have to figure out how I am going to get this to stay on my van. It doesn't keep magnets on it...thye fall right off!!! UGH! If only that were the least of my problems...lol!

Appointment info is in!!!

2006-07-27T15:46:00.000-04:00

Well I had my yearly today with my obgyn. I actually saw someone else that works under him and was so nervous! I broke out in hives on my arms while waiting in the room! I was so afraid she wouldn't re-fill my prescriptions and not know what we have been through this past year with my regular doctor. Instead she came in congratulating me on my weightloss since last year! The She told me they aren't giving up on us yet! She said they could refer me to a RE if I was frustrated enough. Then she explained that they would put me on clomid and monitor me closely. Have me come in on cd 12 to see how many follies are developing, then come back to see if they were growing. Then they would know how fully developed the egg was when I did ovulate. After ovulation I would come in to get my progesterone levels checked and they woudl take it from there. She wanted to give me a heads up on where they woudl begin so I would go in informed.
Or I could do another 6 rounds of clomid, along with metformin on my own. I opted for the 6 rounds on my own. I could take a break after the 3rd to see if the regularity will kick my body into eggie making mode. I only did the 1 round of clomid in December and I definitely ovulated. I was supposed to do it 3 months in a row but I got side tracked with my HSG and I ovulated on my own that cycle...then I started the Vitex. So I went with that for 3 months. I guess I could have stayed with it but I really am getting impatient. Plus while I have thesemoption due to my insurance I might as well take them. I figured give it a chance. I also asked for a re-fill of provera because I don't know if I will ovulate this cycle on my own (it's cd 17 today) so I will need something to bring on AF if I don't. She actually recommended prometrium instead. She said it's a lot less harsh on you. So I left the office loaded with 3 prescriptions as follows: 13 months worth of refills of metformin, 6 rounds of clomid and 4 refills of prometrium! She told me if we do 1 roud of clomid and decide we want to go to the RE just call and she will send a referral. The ball is in our court and it's up to us when we want to. She recomennded I give my body another month and if af doesn't kick in do the prometrium for 10 days and start the clomid on cd5-9. I filled the met and prometrium on my way home. I will wait till I start the prometrium to get the first round of clomid. My insurance doesn't cover it. I am hoping my ovaries get scared and ovulate a perfect eggie and I get pregant without needing the clomid...lol! Hey one can hope! The funny thing is my insurance covered all the prometrium! It was $47! They will cover me to get my period but not cover the clomid ($52)....geesh! Also she wants us to bd like bunnies cause we could ovulate any day in this point of my cycle. I am not going to tell my dh about that part though. I dont want to pressure him...we are doing wonderfuil in that department on our own lately :0)
I really love how I feel when I leave the obgyn. All pumped and ready. I wish I could call and talk to them once a week to keep this energy going!
So it's official.....at least by Septemeber we will be on the clomid wagon!!

So here's to some more baby making times!!!

Why didn't I think of this?

2006-07-27T08:05:00.000-04:00

I just found this sight for some awsome sneakers for kids!!! They are sneakers with 2 whole sizes in 1 pair! I pair is only $40. Now to me that is a bargain...lately we have to get K another pair of sneakers before the school year is out. Spread the word!!!

A second bathroom already?

2006-07-24T09:12:00.000-04:00

This morning every attempt I had to go to the bathroom was stopped because someone was in there. Dave doesn't take long at all. But in between Kaila running in there for her monring tinkle he was in there 2 of my attempts. Lately Kaila has been taking her sweet time too. . She's 9 and already hogging the bathroom? What the heck does a 9 year old do in the bathroom for 45 minutes? I finally got in there when I started singing, "Pee pee on the potty" over and over again outside the door...lol! I asked her ,when I was finished, what she had been doing in there? She said she went to the bathroom, brushed her teeth and put her hair in a pony tail. Boy am I in toruble when she starts doing anything else to her hair!

PCOS Awareness

2006-07-21T16:39:00.000-04:00

Hey if you are looking for a great sight to order PCOS Awareness items from this is a great sight! I ordered one of the magnets. The money goes towards PCOS Awareness!!! We need to get the word out!!!

PCOS Ovary vs. Normal Ovary

2006-07-20T13:35:00.000-04:00

I thought I posted this yesterday but it must be lost in cyber space somewhere. I probably should have posted it a long time ago but I guess now is better than never. So here is basically what my ovaries look like. The tech tried to show me on the screen when I had my sonogram but I didn't really know what a normal ovary looked like....this sure shows it though! I wish it showed the developing egg on the PCOS ovary though.

St. Mary's Little Lancers are the Champions!!!

2006-07-19T22:11:00.000-04:00

Kaila's team won the Championship game tonight!!! The girls played awsome! Evryone was getting hits!!! They definately deserved the win tonight! Kaila was determined to get the bigger trophy this year...lol!

An aw moment....

2006-07-18T19:13:00.000-04:00

Here's K meeting her new cousin. Kaila held her for an hour while she slept. She wanted her to wake up so bad. She tried tickling her toes and that didn't even get her to budge. Even when it was time to sleep she still stayed asleep as we passed her around. She is in the days mixed up with nights phase.

Pics from today :0)

2006-07-15T22:41:00.000-04:00

Just had her din din
Hanging out on Nana's shoulder

Ugh!

2006-07-14T16:42:00.000-04:00

Well my plans have changed for taking clomid this cycle. My pay has to change this week because the way Lauren's dad's work union rules are. The happens every summer but I never know when. So now I don't have enough this week for the clomid. I was going to fill it today and as directed take it tomorrow (cd5) but now it's just not in the funds. Darn insurance companies not covering infertility meds! I will have the funds next week but it will be too late in my cycle. So I'll have to wait till next cycle....But who knows when that will be? When I don't ovulate the lining doesn't build up so af doesn't show for a long time..And when she does it's usually breakthrough bleeding. Ugh!
I have my yearly 7/27 but it's not with my normal obgyn. He was booked till the end of Sept so I have someone else in the office. So hopefully she will give me another prescription with refills for more provera and clomid. I also will need more metformin by then. He only wrote me out enough refills till my yearly...I guess he does that to make sure we get in there.
Ah well I guess it's for the best.....I joined a gym and have been there everyday since. I heard in the beginning of starting an exercise program it can mess up your cycle......But then again I don't know if it would have affected me on the clomid. But at least now I'll have a month (or more depending on when/if I ovulate on my own) under my belt of cardio and strength training to get me healthier. Who knows maybe getting this extra movement will kick my ovaries into good eggie making!!! Maybe this is God plan for me.....

Not much to report...

2006-07-14T14:22:00.000-04:00

The above pic is the same one below but I cropped a close up of just her :0)
I am going through Amelia withdrawl..lol! She, daddy and mommy went home Wednesday after dinner. Rumor has it they are getting adjusted to being home and will be allowing visits this weekend. I probably wont see her till some time next week though. I have off on Thursday so I might give them a call during the weekend to see how things are going and see when is a good time to stop by during the day. By then I m hoping things have settled down a bit and they will know a good time. Kaila is dying to meet her niece.

Quiz

2006-07-13T18:44:00.000-04:00

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Introducing....

2006-07-11T16:57:00.000-04:00

Amelia Jeanne

7lbs 2 oz

19 inches

It's A Girl!!!

2006-07-11T02:30:00.000-04:00

OK so we all were way off....it's a girl!!!
She was born at 11:44 pm weighing in at 7 lbs 2 ounces!!!
She is so beautiful!! Mom and dad are doing well. We left when it was time for the first BF together.
You can check out picks here : http://www.dropshots.com/new.php?userid=37468&cdate=20060711&cimg=0
Time for this Auntie to get to bed!

Heading out....

2006-07-10T20:07:00.000-04:00

My sister is picking me up on her way home from work and we will be heading to the hospital (with my mom and other sister as well) to wait......she should be here any minute!!!!!!!

In labor!!!!

2006-07-10T17:21:00.000-04:00

MY sister is in labor!!! Yay!!! She woke up at 4 am with labor pains...then she went to her appointment today and she was 1 cm dialated when they first checked. Before she left she was 4cm!!!! Her doctor told her she would be a mommy by the 10th or 11th! Then she came home and was talking to my mom and she went to the bathroom and her mucus plug was out and her contractions were 5 minutes apart and more painful.....at that point she let my mom go to rush her dh home faster....I am so excited!!!! I was supposed to go to the gym but now I don't want to leave!!!!!!1

Thursday 13

2006-07-06T16:06:00.000-04:00

13 things in my fridge:

1. eggs

2. strawberries

3. cake

4. macaroni salad

5. jelly

6. watermelon

7. sausage patties

8. cheese

9. diet cherry pepsi

10. mushrooms

11. lunch meat

12. ricotta cheese

13. grapes

Meme

2006-07-06T15:15:00.000-04:00

Pewf!! This was a long one!!!

1. How old do you wish you were? I'm ok w/ my age right now...
2. Where were you when 9/11 happened? At work putting the kids up for snack when our director came flying in and turned the kiddie music off and put the radio on.
3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? say, "jerk!"
4. Do you consider yourself kind? yeah... if you don't cross me.
5. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would it be? Never really thought about it cause I don't want one.
6. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? french would be fun!
7. Do you know your neighbors? A little...
8. What do you consider a vacation/Holiday? When we can go camping longer than 2 days...
9. Do you follow your horoscope? nah
10. Would you move for the person you loved? sure... I wouldn't want to leave the USA though...OK maybe Canada.....
11. Are you touchy feely? not like I used to be....I am with Kaila though. Kids need it!
12. Do you believe that opposites attract? sure
13. Dream job? I am doing it...now I would like to add our own baby to the mix!
14. Favorite channel(s)? TLC and HBO
15. Favorite place to go on weekends? I just like to get out of the house.....
16. Showers or Baths? showers all the way!
17. Do you paint your nails? When I'm feeling optimistic.
18. Do you trust people easily? HMM not really...
19. What are your phobias? Spiders and never being able to get pregnant.
20. Do you want kids? yes!!
21. Do you keep a handwritten journal? Nope.....
22. Where would you rather be right now? Somewhere alone near a beach with DH
23. Heavy or light sleeper? Light sleeper as soon as I became Kaila's mommy.
24. Are you paranoid? sometimes.
25. Are you impatient? Incredibly.
26. Who can you relate to? lots of people.
27. How do you feel about interracial couples? Love is blind.
28. Have you been burned by love? Yes
29. What's your favourite pick up line? I havnt used any....
30. What's your main ringtone on your cell? It's called Melody 3 on my cell...
31. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
32. What did the last text on your mobile phone say? it said we had a voicemail
33. Whose bed did you sleep in last night? mine
34. What color shirt are you wearing? orange and grey
35. Most recent movie you watched? Just watched the first Garfield Movie with dd today.
36. Name three things you have on you at all times? my purse, my rings & watch.
37. What colour are your bed sheets? sage green
38. How much cash do you have on you right now? none....I dont have my purse in here....
39. What is your favourite part of the chicken? breast
40. What's your favourite town/city? I have only been to Atlanta, GA...and here.
41. I can't wait till: I am pregnant!
42. Who got you to join myspace? No one still havnt and don't plan on it.
43. What did you have for dinner last night? Ceasar salad, cheesy biscuits, freid clam strips, Aztec Chicken and mashed potatos at Red Lobster!
44. How tall are you barefoot? 5'1"
45. Have you ever smoked heroin? no.
46. Do you own a gun? No
47. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
48. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? LOL.....I guess with dh it was just being me.
49. Do you have A.D.D.? no
50. What time did you wake up today? 7 am
51. Current worry? money. as usual.
52. Current hate? That if I don't eat on time and correctly i get shaky!
53. Favorite place to be? Outside when the sun us shinning
54. Where would you like to travel? Europe
55. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs? I would love to be a mom to a 7-10 y/o and a 19 y/o in college......hopefully in our own home!
56. Last thing you ate? piece of a cookie
57. What songs do you sing in the shower? I dont sing in the shower...I do that in the car.....
58. Last thing that made you laugh? Kaila when she made up a new word called frizzily to describe her favorite fireworks.
59. Worst injury you've ever had? When I slid on a chesnut cut open my knee and sprained my ankle......
60. Does someone have a crush on you? Dave
61. What's your favorite candy? M&M's
62. What song is stuck in your head? What would you do for a klondike bar?

Such a nice Anniversary

2006-07-05T22:48:00.000-04:00

Cards from my in-laws, my parents and the ones we got each other.

The beautiful roses are from my hubby :0)

Cake my parents gave us. Buttercream frosting....YUM!!!!

Cookie I got for Dave!

My sister Jeanne's boyfriend took Kaila out for ice cream and watched Finding Nemo while Dave and I went to Red Lobster on my parents! YUMMY night!

Thank you very much!!!!

3 years!

2006-07-05T15:58:00.000-04:00

Happy Anniversary Hun!!!!

I love you more and more everyday!

Always and Forever!!!

2006-07-04T11:53:00.000-04:00

Did somoene say Tornado?

2006-06-30T19:58:00.000-04:00

A tornado touched down about 5 minutes from our house today! Plus we had golf ball sized hail! It chipped paint off the front of our mini van! Plus my poor poor flowers look all banged up!
You can read about it here: http://www.silive.com/newsflash/metro/index.ssf?/base/news-18/1151702657180210.xml&storylist=simetro
Right before it was here.....the temp dropped from 78 to 56 in a few minutes!
It doesn't say anything about how it hovered over a restaurant down the street and took off tops of the trees and their sign off the building. Plus the hospice behind the business park, in that area, had a lot of damage to the area. They had tons of ambulances and fire trucks in there. Traffic was backed up in front of my house for hours afterwards.
It rained so much the solar cover on our pool is flooded into the pool and our pool is over flowing. The hail was crazy! First it came down kinda small. Then about 10 mintes later it was huge! We had windows open and it was so loud we were yelling to each other from the noise of it hitting the opened crank windows and air conditioners. Lauren and Kaila were laughing nervously at the really loud thunder and bolts of lightening.

Our TTC Plan

2006-06-27T14:31:00.000-04:00

Well I got all my appointments set up. I have my Annual Pap for the end of July and my Physical with my Primary a few days later. I also set up Dave's while I had them on the phone.
I had to take a pregnancy test today. It's cd 54 and I have not ovualted so I figured 2 months have gone by it's time to start the provera. But as instructed by my doctor (and advice from friends going through the same TTC situations) I always take a test before I start since if there were a possiblity that I was, I wouldnt hurt the baby. So of course (but still was hoping my body was going against everything I know) it was a BFN. Ah well one can hope. So down went pill 1 (of 10) of provera. With my previous experiences with this I usually get AF 4 days after the last pill. So I plan on taking clomid day 5-9 of this cycle. This will be my second round. I plan on taking clomid the next cycle too. I have my annual on July 27th...which will be (depending on when af shines after the provera) cd 17....that's when I ovulated last round so I dont know if I will have to cancel my annual if I do ovulate that day? I dont want to hurt any chances. I know all they do is scrape the cervix.....I guess I can let them know that morning. I need to get in there for my prescriptions for more metformin, clomid and provera. I also plan on asking to be tested for diabetes and my thyroid. I have a physical with my primary so if the obgyn won't, I know he will. The last time my thyroid was tested was in 2002...I never asked for my T count. I didn't know anything about it then. This time I will get them. I had no idea that they could be wrong for TTC.
It feels good to have a plan though. The last few months I havn't really been thinking about TTC much. Been doing what has to be done and temping. Now I feel like I let that time go by and I won't get it back. I never became a ttc-zilla or anything like that. But I am upset that I didn't get the clomid and at least give it a try. I took that in December and that is the only month I had a normal 1 month cycle. Every since AF came when I was a teenager it went from 2-6 months of her showing. I believe that if I would have taken the clomid 3 months in a row like he asked I would have ovulated earlier like a normal person. But I was so set on ovulating on my own after the HSG. Which I did but it was way late in the cycle. I have my plan in motion and am not swaying from it this time.

All Better

2006-06-24T10:04:00.000-04:00

Well the hydrocortisone did the trick. The itchies were gone as soon as it made contact and all the bumps are gone this morning. It actually got worse before it got better on my right top arm...it was so weird and I still have no idea why it happened. Ah well I am off to shower before Kaila's softball game!

I haven't A Clue

2006-06-24T00:23:00.000-04:00

So Dave and I have been sitting here watching all Season One of Big Love. I have been downing water and nothing else. About an hour ago I started itching on the back of my neck and my arm but I didn't look. Then I did and there are red dots all over my inner arms. As time has gone by there are more and more and they are on the other side of my arm. Man they itch like crazy! I said something to Dave and he asked me what I ate. I made chicken souvlaki for dinner which we have all the time. I didn't make it any different. They are all over the back of my neck too. It really is bugging me...I came on here to distract myself from itching them. I don't know if they are hives or I am having an allergic reaction to something. Do hives itch? Ugh this is so aggravating...I can understand having them on the back of my neck from the heat but my arms? I can sit here and watch more form! OK time for some Hydracortizone.....

The Graduate

2006-06-22T22:57:00.000-04:00

Here's some pics I took of him last night:

Celebrating at Fudrucker's :

Isn't he handsome? I wish I had some baby pictures too!

He is going to visit my other brother in CA for a couple weeks and then he will be enrolling at ECC. He doesnt want to take any time off cause he is afraid he won't go back. He isnt sure what yet but he is going to go for computers.
He did win a scholarship for Gannon University.

I feel so Old!!!

2006-06-21T22:52:00.000-04:00

I went to my baby brother's High School graduation tonight. While I was sitting at UB watching the stage below (we were in the balcony) it hit me! Exactly 10 years ago tonight I was doing the same thing and my parents were sitting where I was, waiting for me to walk accross that stage. So while I was sitting there I had all these memories coming in my mind of that day. Then I started to think of all these wise things I could tell my brother. Then I kinda giggled because now I remember my parents and older sister telling me all the same exact things 10 years ago. Boy were they right! Man graduations are depressing! It's so true that High School are some of the best days of your life.....after that things get so stressful! So I told my brother to go to all the graduation parties he can go to this summer. He already is heading out to one plus going to Williamsville's Senior Prom tomorrow. I told him it's so true that these are the best days of your life.....he looked at me probably the same way I was looking at my family when they were telling me and probably thinking the same stuff. I told him 10 years from now he will understand. I understood when I got my 10 year reunion invitation last week.........

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2006-06-19T23:05:00.000-04:00

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2006-06-18T00:24:00.000-04:00

Tick-Tock Tick-Tock. Just waiting for Dave to get home ... My sister suprised him with an early birthday gift of 2 tickets to The Tragically Hip concert tonight. He was so excited!! He asked me to go with him but I have never really listened to them. I know when we first started dating he listened to them all the time. But since then I havnt heard him play them when I am aroound. We really dont listen to many cd's in the house....more so in the vehicles. So he aske dhis brother to go...thye bpth are big fans. I think it would be better to go to a concert with someone who is into them. Besides I got to spend the night with Kaila, Jordan and Jocelyn :0) While they were scorching in the sun waiting for the concert, we were in the yard catching up while the kiddos were in the pool. Now the kids are sound asleep and we are watching SNL.....oh I hear a car door slamming!

The Future....

2006-06-14T12:52:00.000-04:00

Not much new is really going on in my TTC world. I ran out of Vitex so my temps have dropped back down to the norm. I need to get me some more of that. I havn't evaluated and it's CD 41 here. I have 1 round of Provera left so I have a feeling I will be using that. I don't want to take it till I get my yearly appointment set up. That way I will have a nice clean uterus for that. I have 2 rounds of clomid left so I think I will take those the next cycle after my yearly.
I have been thinking about that appointment for a while now. I don't know what I want to do? I know he is going to suggest and RE or Endocrinologist. I know from there they will suggest IUI but we just don't have that in our budget. Plus I just don't have the energy for it right now. 3 years of unsuccessful TTC rally is emotionally draining and can be stressful in your relationship. I am thinking of using the clomid and if that doesn't give us a bfp going on BC for awhile so we can have a break. Plus get my cycle maybe normal and I would love to alleviate some of the symptoms from the PCOS.
I believe the metformin might be starting to work. I did ovulate very late in my cycles. Before Met. It would be months before af would shine and that I believe was just break through bleeding. Now I am ovulating (I know from charting) at least once every 2 months. That gives me 6 chances a year but better than before.
I don't know I am all over about what to do. I guess I should go see a endo...I just am not looking forward to all the testing..ugh! I guess I'll discuss everything with my OB next month...Till then it's just the normal BDing and praying for the ovulation fairy to shine!

Been 8 years with cats around me!

2006-06-08T19:09:00.000-04:00

It's so quiet around here without her. It's so weird sitting here at the computer with out her meowing and buzzing around my ankles. I miss the way she would get the zooms with her tail all puffed up before she had to use the litter box. It was like she had to psych herself into going in there....lol! Or when she would come whine to me and I would get right up and go look at her food and water. Boy did she have me trained...lol! I love the little noises she would make out the window at the birds! I love how all I had to do was snap my fingers and point at her to get her to stop doing something she shouldn't. Boy it's going to be so weird here without her.....

Farwell To Snickers...

2006-06-06T22:28:00.000-04:00

Some of you know that we have to become a cat free home. Tinkerbell went to Dave's moms and we have been trying since April to find a loving home for Snickers. Dave was hoping to find a family member or friend so he could keep tabs on her. No such luck! Well today I heard of this sight that you cant post things you want or things you would like to give away. It's called Freecycle. I posted (in my area) that I had a free cat and waited. not 2 minutes posted did I hear from someone! We emailed back and forth all day and I sent pictures. Snickers to getting picked up by a family of 4 and going to live in Lewiston, NY tomorrow. They were going to wait till the wekend but are so excited they can't wait!
I am sad to see her go but very happy she will be going to a family and will be the only pet. Now she has been in a house with 3 cats and been just fine. But since she has been alone these last couple months she has become so cute! She really does like being the only pet. She is more open. Before she was such a push over. If Tinkerbell came over and tried to get some loving she would just walk away and give up. Now she is out all the time and forcing you to give her loving..lol!
I feel so bad for Dave...he lost his truck and his kitty all within a week of each other. Snickers will leave while he is at work tomorrow so he will need some big time cuddling!